Farewell To A
Sweetheart
My dear sweetheart,
The very
idea of spending yet another evening with you fills me with unfathomable joy
and ecstasy. There is, no doubt, a fabulous charm in your eyes, and yet they
remind me that life means to move ahead. Your company certainly has had the
potential to ward off even the loneliness of death, but I don’t think we could
continue anymore. The very idea of an eternal bonding with anyone terrifies me.
It seems quite foolish and stupid to offer my shoulders for the reception of a
burden that would only entail a dozen extra responsibilities. I don’t shirk
responsibilities, but such a future with you, or anyone for that matter, would
certainly rob me of the independence and freedom I’ve enjoyed ever since.
Looking out of the window, I can see the dull colours of
life I would have to live with without you.
This is the arid desert you would leave behind. Life without you would
be quite different. It would be without the bliss and happiness your company
brought into my life. But there is a climax to everything---- every state of
feeling, as well as every position in life has it. Our relationship has perhaps
reached the point. The latent reason fore your introduction in y life was to
push me atop the hill of success. Your thoughts had the potential to make me
wish for more. It was for your sake that I made all the efforts, but all this
makes very little difference now.
There were pebbles and barbs in my path, but thankfully, my
eyes were fixed on the crimson peak above--- on you. My imagination was filled
with the fiery firmament beyond all the storms above my head and all the
quarries below my feet or even the thorns scratching my face and hands, your
company had such powers.
You came into my life aboard the beams of moonlight. This
was a time when a huge void existed in my life. Your presence did inject
freshness and zeal into my dull and serene life, but good things in life never
last long. What remains are the rigid and tough traditions and customs of the
society we live in. the society rarely ever considers the values of love and
friendship, and, at the end of the day, all of us have to abide by the rules of
the game. There are, of course, revolutionaries that go against the dominant
current, but I don’t think I could join the league.
Let time go by, and I’m sure you would find someone better
than me, someone who would not be as divergent and different from you as I am.
You would soon forget everything about me, don’t worry.
I shall not preserve any souvenirs or anything else that
would remind me of you. It is not that I don’t respect the sanctity of our
relationship, but they would prove to be hurdles when fresh relations are to be
formed. I would advise you to destroy all memorabilia you have of me.
We shall not be in touch, this is the most important point I
want to emphasise. Things shall certainly not be the same, and it would be
better if we embraced the differences and recognized their importance in our
lives. Let us not seek similitudes anymore, for there aren’t any. Life would
certainly not be easy without you, but then nothing in life ever is. I’ll have
to learn to cope with the life you leave behind, but one has to learn a lot of
things in life.
The only point of consolation for me is that this is not the
first parting. There have been several
instances in the past, but the parting has never been as heavy. This time, I seem to be moving towsrd a haze that covers the
entire ocean with its vanishing features. The air seems to be quite dark and
heavy, everything seems to be condensed into a mournful gloom.
I thank destiny for the graceful time I spent thinking of
you, and in your company. The evening to come shall be cherished for the
remaining years of my life.
The sun shall sink low, and from glooming white, it would
change to a dull red colur. It would not have the customary rays, and without
its heat, it would go down gradually, and darkness would prevail.
