The Changed Equations

The Changed Equations

I wasn’t sure if it was the right thing to do. I did it all the same. There is nothing right or wrong when you are in love, and I was in love ---- that’s all that counts. I was looking at her through a vacuum created by the society we live in, but the vacuum didn’t permit her to raise her vision and look at me. Most probably, she didn’t even know I was there looking at her. a long time had gone by since the last time I saw her in the examination-hall. The moon had certainly not changed, although a lot of time had certainly gone by.

I was looking at her even as she wasn’t even aware of my presence. The eatery in Big Bazaar didn’t have many tables, and she occupied the one nearest to the entrance. She did appear a bit changed; the hue and colour could be probably be attributed to matrimony; but I couldn’t be sure. It didn’t matter a lot now ---- the equations were changed on my part too.

I wasn’t exactly married, I wasn’t even engaged, but I was committed to someone I had never known in my life. It was a typical Indian case ---- issues of matrimony are settled by the elders at home. The Home Ministry had chosen someone who was to be someone special in my life. I don’t think I held any rights to look at the young lady before me enjoying her piece of fast-food. Time had turned things around for both of us. I was headed for the moon, and she was probably already there.

I was a victim in the hands of time. The appointed time for her bliss had come, while I would probably have to wait a bit longer for the appointed time to take over the dim part of my life. I’ve been waiting for a long time, I wonder how much longer I would have to wait for my dreams to come true.

I console myself with the belief that the destination I’m headed for might be where I wanted to be after all. It is certainly a satisfactory experience when you are finally at a definite destination. But the end of my journey would be the beginning of another adventure --- one that might be much more exciting, or it could leave me twice as miserable.

The adventure and the end it brings me to would be quite significant. I hope it would make the adventure in Big Bazaar insignificant. I hope things turn out well.