In Her Company

In Her Company
I was with a beautiful soul, it was so beautiful that being with it made me feel a lot better than I ever did; it made my soul more beautiful and purer than it could ever have been. For a while, I felt inferior because here was a zenith I always wanted to be at, but I couldn’t achieve the height. There was a catharsis effected within me; I felt purged of all my sins and wrong-doings; it was quite similar to what I felt while in Mecca. For a while, I wondered if the Kaaba had crept closer to me while she was with me in my room.  



The beauty of these moments is sure to lose its lustre in a couple of days unless we discover some points where all heavenly ideals I build up around her and she builds around me wither into the ether leaving behind some concrete values we shall have to put up with. All said and done, I was prepared to cherish whatever values came my way for a long time to come.



It is going to be  a long time before both of us discover all points of intersection of our values; they are going to create some beautiful patterns all over our life in the years to come, but there is the incumbent moment to deal with. This is a point when two different lives are going to be conjoined into one life. There is so much to discover and so much to disclose.



Such points could as well be counterproductive to the beauty inherent in our company if we failed to shed at least some of the heavenly ideals we build up around each other. We shall have to revise many of our values and ideals in the years to come. None of us deserve any of the heavenly ideals: no one is perfect, but they are a part of the novelty we have discovered when we found each other. They shall gradually fade into the ether, I know.



replacements of these values are not going to be as good as the originals, I know, but they will have to be a part of our life for a long time to come. There will be several alterations and changes in them in the years to come. All said and done, they are not going to serve  a cosmetic purpose, they are actually going to help us lead our life in a definite direction. They are going to be a part of the tough reality we are going to find ourselves pitched against each and every day of our life. They are going to be quite ugly and they are not going to be coloured in the precise form we want them to be in, I know this.



Very few of us or almost none of us get to see the world coloured in the exact colours we idealise our world in. Almost all of us have to accept the world as it is presented to us even if the colours don’t collate with our favourite colours. The painter who fills in all these colours knows the best permutations and combinations of colours to be used. We rarely have a hand in their selection.



This doesn’t mean we can leave all of our future to our destiny. There is always a certain amount of effort put into our daily lives. Although the final outcome and effort everyone puts up are never directly proportionate,  there is always  a certain amount of satisfaction of having made one’s effort. Here is a change effected in me by virtue of her company.