A Revision Is Required

A Revision Is Required
I really didn’t know if I ought to be jealous of those who couldn’t make it to the dais I’m standing at or not. I have certainly scored a point above them, and although I don’t know anything about them, in a way, I’m thankful for being able to score above them. They are not inferior to me in any way: they are only different from me, although I feel to be superior to them in many ways. I got the prize they were looking for, and I got the prize only because I was destined to get it. I didn’t make any of the efforts they did to get to the prize, and I didn’t go through all they had to. At the end of the day, they didn’t get the prize they were headed out for, and I got it.

From their point of view, I got a prize without having to make any conscious efforts for it, and from my  point of view, I did make my best efforts, but I didn’t get what I was looking for. I aimed at a particular goal, but I got to another goal.

 My efforts were pointed at a particular end, and I should have got to the end in time, but as fate had it, I got to the end others were vying to get to. At the end of the day, my efforts have certainly been rewarded, but I didn’t get the reward I was out for. I should be happy with the reward I got; many people didn’t get it although they did whatever they could to get it.

All efforts they made to get to the end in time were not visible to me. From my point of view, my life for has been a roller coaster-ride, but for others, my life has been smooth and without any bumps. There have been hundreds of rolls and curves along the way the coaster of my life has been following. There doesn’t seem to be an end to the crises in my life. I feel life has been simple and smooth for everyone else, while their life has also been through a lot of ups and downs when viewed from their point of view.

I wish there was a way I could change my point of view. I wish I could view myself from a different point of view, from the point where others see me as a happy and content being. This is how I really want to be. For anyone looking at me, there are no tensions in my life, and I know better than them. Only I know of the way life has dealt with me. No one else can have an idea of the trouble I have been through.

I yearn to be within the carefree comforts others perceive me to be in. I badly want to be free of all cares, I want to be like a child. Young children don’t seem to have any cares in the world. This may be a point of view that might conflict with that of a child just like anyone’s point of view of me varies from my real self. The truth is I have forgotten all tensions I had as a child. Everyone has forgotten the tensions that were a part of our childhood. This is why we perceive childhood as an ideal part of our lives.

Childhood was an important phase in my life. I went through a lot of crests and troughs while sailing in the oceans of childhood, but they are not relevant to me now. Childhood had its own cares and tensions, and they were as relevant to my childhood as are the tensions I have in my life today. Childhood appears to be an ideal part of my life without any tensions at all, although it had its own share of sorrows and tensions.  At the end of the day, everyone has to go through a lot of different phases in life, and each phase brings with itself its own share of challenges and rewards. Life brings a whole lot of challenges and rewards for everyone, and an ordinary life never has an equal proportion of the two, at least it doesn’t seem to.

Going through different phases of life are quite like running a business. Just as there are alternate periods of boom and recession in a business, there are periods of joy and gloom in everyone’s life. The podium I’m standing at today is sure to bring with itself a lot of despair and misery for me too along with the  emotions it has. There is no place in the world that is capable of propelling only one of the two emotions into one’s being; they are always complimentary to each other.

One's point of view is what makes one's world. I hope I can change my point of view one day to make myself happy.