Winning The Battle Of Life

Winning The Battle Of Life
I badly wish Zeenat were a part of the throbbing and vibrating world before me. I know I’m not the one to decide the time when she is going to be a part of my life, but this is only a wish. I can only make some wishes and pleas before Allah. There is nothing in the world more about this I can do. I simply can’t do anything to bring the time destined for her entry into my life closer than it is.

I do wonder if everything is supposed to happen at an appointed time, what is the use of my making pleas before Allah. No one can change a prescripted destiny, it is said. I do wonder if Allah has some power over the destiny He has scripted for me. If everything is to happen at an appointed time, how can my pleas before Allah bring an event closer in my history?

If destiny rules superior over everything, why shouldn’t I worship my destiny? I made a couple of pleas while circumferencing the Kaaba in 2010. I don’t know how many violate the master-plan laid out in my destiny. I don’t know how they are to come true. It is said that all pleas I made while going around the Kaaba are to be accepted. Will Allah change my destiny to make them come true? I thought no one can change one’s destiny; it was transcribed a long time before the galaxies were created. Does Allah possess the powers to effect a change in the master-plan He crafted for me? Allah is capable of everything, it is said.

A part of the problem is that I gave an attentive ear to a couple of predictions made by a soothsayer by interpreting the lines on my palms. Surprisingly, almost  all of them have come true. I wish I had not paid attention to any of the prophecies. It really shakes my belief in Allah. This is why it is forbidden to consult a soothsayer from an Islamic point of view.

I got a few hints of the master-plan transcribed for me. It is Allah’s grace that He transcribed our destinies on our palms, or is it merely a fluke that all predictions have come true? I  shouldn’t have consulted the soothsayer, but my consultation was also a part of the master-plan. It was to give some amount of relief from the dissonance I would have had had  I not known that events in my life have followed a predetermined  pattern of which I was apprised of a long time back. I do feel a bit relieved when I think of my helplessness over the course of events my life has followed and it is to follow from now on. I can never do anything to counter any of the prophecies.

I could never have done anything to help myself if everything was to follow a set pattern. I did my best to counter the predictions made, this is all I can have ever done, but events occurred as predicted. All my efforts to go against the dictates of my fate have been useless. Most probably, my fate only wanted me to make my best efforts to counter itself. I learnt quite a few important lessons of life while doing this.

Viewing all this from a different point of view, the predictions made propelled an urge within me to see the world in the form it was predicted. So,  unconsciously, I did my best to see a world where the predictions come true. In a way, this implies I wanted everything to go wrong because I feel everything has certainly gone wrong for me. I may be wrong. This is the right sequence of events for my being.

I didn’t take any wrong turns, as I think I did. I have been marching on the track delineated by my fate, so I didn’t take any wrong decisions in my life, never. Everything has been correct and as per the master-plan. I had a faint idea of what it is, so it gives me a sense of satisfaction of being on the right track. I never drifted away from the right track, as I sometimes think I did.

Events I deem to be tragic in my life have given me resilience to bear through such events in  future, and they have made me stronger than ever before. My destiny wanted me to be strong enough to bear such tragedies in life, so I was served a small dose at an early instance. This is something like the immunity one develops to some diseases when injected with a small amount of infection. There      certainly are some minor ramifications of this, but they are nothing as compared to the actual infection one has been made immune to.

My guess is the predictions made me make efforts to see them come true. Unconsciously, I have been doing my best to make all predictions come true. All events that have occurred have been following a predetermined pattern because I have done my best for the pattern to be what it has been. The predictions made me make efforts for them to come true. All my efforts  I made to counter the predictions didn’t materialise because I never made any. I have been under the impression I made such efforts because I want to see a world where I fight every battle like a gallant warrior.

I hope the gallant warrior does win some battles in life and I do get to see Zeenat in a concrete form in a couple of years.