For Those Who Move On In Life

For Those Who Move On In Life
I pulled myself away from its grip with all the power I had, but, apparently, it was stronger than the pull of a magnet. I wanted it to let me go, but it wasn’t prepared to let me go. This was quite like having spent some time with a sweetheart who didn’t want to let me go after a date. The time I’d spent with her was to go down in the annals of my history as some of the best, but I am aware that the time allotted for our  company was over now. We had to part ways.

I had discovered so much joy in the days of yore that I never wanted to let go of my past, although I knew I had to move on to the future in search of better days. The future certainly has some better days in store for me. I only have to move on and better days shall be here one day, I know. I can move on only if I let go of my past and move on to greener pastures that shall confront me in a few days if I keep moving.

There are several events in my past whose thoughts make me writhe and shiver in angst. They are gone and forgotten. These events shall never be a part of my life again, I know, but they return to torment me again and again. They will continue to do so till the time I find worse moments to torment me.

There have always been   events that have destroyed the peace and tranquility of my existence, my life has never been    devoid of such moments. There is to be no permanent solution to this. I shall be trembling and writhing in angst and frustration throughout my life. There has always been a temporary relief from the anxiety, but it has always evaporated into thin air as soon as it appeared.

I really don’t know if the change that is to come into my life in a few days has the powers to fish me out of such a situation. A part of me wants to forget everything about the past and move on in life. Another part of me wants me to stay where I am. The truth is I’m exhausted and tired after the sojourn I’ve been through. I wish I knew which part of myself is giving me the correct advice.

I’m certainly at a point where I wasn’t at at an earlier instance, I’m certainly better than several of my peers and contemporaries who don’t even have the basic amenities, but this is certainly not the end of all my struggles. I ought to be content and satisfied with where life has brought me to, but my satisfaction shouldn’t translate into inaction when it comes to moving ahead in life. I have to move on in life and forget about my past. This is the only way there can be happiness in my life.

I wonder if any of my efforts are worth the few  moments of happiness in life I get as a reward of investing them. the joy and glee is going to fade into ignominy in a couple of days, if not a few moments. So, is the struggle and strife in life worth  the few moments of happiness and joy we get in return? The important point is   we don’t have a choice but to move on in quest of happiness and satisfaction in life. The quest is sure to bring us before several moments we certainly don’t appreciate of, but considering the fact that we have very little or absolutely no choice but to move on in life, it is not a bad proposition.

Everyone keeps moving on. One just might find happiness and satisfaction round the corner in a form not known to anyone. It keeps changing its form and shape, but all of us get to meet happiness and satisfaction at some point of time in our life. The quality of happiness each of us gets is never directly proportionate to the efforts we made for it, but all of us do get hold of an abstract entity that can be    compared to happiness in life. The disproportionate manner is a farce, but none of us have a choice of not making any efforts even if we are not rewarded in a proportionate manner. We have to move on in life.

Considering the situation where one is not rewarded in a proportional manner, but hast to move on is quite frustrating. Whatever we do in life, we do for a reward in an abstract or a concrete form. While some of us do get the reward we were out for, most of us don’t. There are even those who get punished for the efforts they made. Negative reinforcement is always detrimental to any efforts we make in life, they kill all chances of our making efforts in the future, but none of us have any choices but to make efforts.

We move on in life every single moment of our lives, and I too move on from my past to a future that just might be a bit better than my past.