Stepping Into A Future Of My Dreams

Stepping Into A Future Of My Dreams
I want to break away from my past and step into   a future which is as deep as a forbidden dream for me.  I badly want to see the dream whenever I manage to catch a sleep; it attracts me to itself quite like the fruit forbidden    attracted Adam. I am prepared to be expelled from the paradise I find myself in if only I had a glimpse of my future. Somehow, I know, I shall never get to my future. It is an apparition I am headed for, I know, but it is better than all the realities of life I have been exposed to till now. I badly ant to step into future where everything is going to be perfect and beautiful.

I don’t need anyone’s express permission for this. I only have to close my eyes and let myself lose in the blind labyrinth of emotions she lays before me. She led the way to the intricate maze but refused to accompany me beyond the entrance. I was left to find my way by myself. I don’t mind doing things independently, but going through a maze on my own did attract some amount of dissonance.

The world within had a lot of abstractions. I found it hard to see even myself while in the maze as I am accustomed to see myself in a world of concrete realities. I perceive everything in comparison to my image, but with my image altered in the world I had entered, everything around me was changed too. All said and done, the collection of abstractions had a typical attraction for me, the most beautiful abstraction calls itself Zeenat, and I love it. I strongly feel there is nothing in the abstract or concrete world that is better than Zeenat. She is simply the best.

She is better than everything in the concrete world or even in the abstract world.   She is someone who doesn’t have any faults and foibles: she is the most perfect entity that ever existed. I shall never find the perfection in reality, but I’m prepared to accept whatever is given in whatever form. I’ve struggled for success in all its different shapes and forms; even though I’ve  seldom found exactly what I’ve aimed for,  I’ve always got a whiff of success in the form   of a wee bit of the entity I strove for. I’ve always been grateful for whatever has been pushed into my lot. They have shown me that the real joy of life  lies in being thankful for whatever you have.

These are the very concepts I’m gong to strive and struggle for from now on. They direct me to move on in  search of better worlds. I had to make my word a lot better every day, and keep up the effort on a regular basis. I had to do this to make my conscious world a lot better for the abstractions including Zeenat to step into. The paradox of the situation is that I  can do very little to make my world a better place. I have been helpless against the tirades of time and my fate. They have    left a severe void in my being.

I wish there was a way I can possibly bury my past in the void. There is so much I want to forget. There is so much that is to be turned into a dream I can forget when I get up. I strongly feel realities of life that have not been very pleasant to me. they deserve to be turned into abstract dreams,  ones I can forget in a jiffy, and shown the way into the world she showed me. The truth is there is no way one can ever transform the realities of life into dreams just as there is no way dreams can ever                    be turned into a reality. There is simply no option available but to swallow the reality in the form it is presented in.

The reality is always   presented in a form that is quite unlike the one we wanted it to be in, but we are never given any options when it comes to a presentation of reality in a concrete form. Those of us who face reality in its face, in the form it presents itself in are the ones who rule the world on their own terms. These people are quite rare because realities of life make everyone make some compromises. All of us have to make a lot  of compromises in life; they act as brakes that serve to put a check on the wings we soar on; they don’t let     us fly too high. Those who fly too high are more likely to get their wings burnt by the heat of the  sun and they are more likely to fall on the ground.

The only way out is to make some compromises with realities of life when they can’t be contested against, and to do everything to counter them whenever possible. I hope  I can deal with realities of life in a proper manner.