In Search Of Better Days

In Search Of Better Days
The sound of raindrops falling heavily on the windows shook me up from my slumbers. Apparently, it had been drizzling for a long time, but the shower had reached its zenith in the course of a few hours while I was asleep. The intensity of the shower was on a downward incline by the time I got up. In a small way, I was grateful that the rain chose to  come down heavily around me while I was still in bed. The rain didn’t make a lot of difference to me over the next day although I'm sure it would have been a lot better had the day been warm and dry.

A lot could have happened, and a lot would not have happened had the weather been congenial instead of the humid and wet weather that greeted me in the day. I wonder if I ought to thank Allah for all the dreams that couldn’t come true because of the lack of a dry atmosphere or should I curse my fate for the continued shower of rain for a long time. I certainly was not in a position to do all I had planned to do; the sultry weather altered my plans. The weather was worse while I was asleep; I wonder if it was a blessing in disguise. Though it continued to rain cats and dogs throughout the day, yet I was saved from the worst part of the shower because I was asleep. All the same, whatever part of the rainfall caught my attention seemed to be the worst.

It was the worst part of the day for me, but in a small way, I am grateful that it was bearable; it could have been worse. When Allah shows you through some adversities, he also gives you the resilience and power to bear through the rough times. I am grateful for the resilience I developed during the rough times my life took me through. I had been quite lucky that I was asleep while the worst part of the shower blessed the earth, but it is human tendency to curse the present. This is because it is only the present we know of, we don’t know of the worse part of the deal that was avoided when Allah pushed us into what appear to be bad times.

I look up at those who don’t have to bear all the rough weather I have had to bear. I wonder if they are really better off than me. they certainly don’t know what it is like to be in bad weather, so they can never appreciate when the weather changes for better. I wonder if the very appreciation of good times is as important that I have been pushed through rough weather. Those who don’t know what it is like to be through bad weather can never feel the way I do when I finally walk into good weather. I really wonder if the feeling of wellness is so important that I have been exposed to a rough spell of weather for so long a time. I hope the good weather I experience is going to be proportionate to the rough weather I have been through. The very contrast is what is going to push in some amount of satisfaction in me, but the satisfaction is to be evanescent like the perfume I spray on myself.

Very few of us are satisfied with whatever we have. We want more and more of whatever we have. We always want to see a tomorrow or today better than the yesterday that has gone by. In a way, this is what makes us make efforts for a better tomorrow and an even better today. Virtually, the insatiable thirst we have for something better than what we have today pushes us to make positive efforts for a better tomorrow. The world may have been standing where it was yesterday had we not made efforts for a better tomorrow.

A better tomorrow is quite like a mirage I see on a hot summer day on the road ahead of the car. It keeps moving ahead even as I move towards it. The nearer I get to the mirage, the further it moves from me. We always want something better than what we have with us. There is no formula that can satisfy or satiate all our needs.  This is quite like the food we eat every day. No amount of food can ever keep us away from the next meal whenever it may be, and we always do our best to make the next meal larger than the last.

Our needs keep increasing in proportion like a balloon which can be blown infinitely. The balloon keeps growing in proportion every day, and the space around it is adjusted accordingly. We tend to customise the world to suit our needs, and this is how the world goes around its axis. We do our best to change the world around us; we never pause at our efforts because nothing in the world ever satisfies us.

We have a tendency to see spring throughout our lives, but winters creep into our lives by default every now and then.  I find it quite comfortable when I put on a warm sweater while I’m out for a walk these days. The woolen garment shields me from the incumbent cold  weather although I know it is going to outlive its utility in a couple of days. With Holi round the corner, I’m sure to experience a cool spring in a couple of days.

The weather has certainly become quite good. There will be warm and some really hot summers in a couple of weeks, but I must do my best to enjoy the cool weather that is the order of the day today. Life will certainly be better in a couple of days, but the cool aura is not going to be permanent. Nothing is permanent in life except change. There is bound to be a change in the overall scheme of things,  I hope my life is headed for better days.